In brief – my spirituality is:
- Mystical, but unsentimental.
- Experiential, not belief‑based.
- Grounded in the anatomy of consciousness.
- Clear-eyed about the psychic space.
I embrace paradox, recognizing that wisdom often appears as foolishness, knowing as unknowing, and that life’s deepest truths unfold through ordinary, everyday experience.
I see the world as a living mystery, teaching and learning as reciprocal processes, and the highest mastery as moving, often unnoticed, cultivating harmony in both self and community.
Ordinary life, awe, simple kindness, and soft action are central.
I hold a deep appreciation for the cosmic joke — the way unconsciousness, once seen and no longer defended, becomes darkly, compassionately funny.
My spirituality is grounded in love, which I understand as identical with consciousness and the mystery. Love is my orientation; the mystery is home.
My Spiritual Identity sits somewhere between
- Mystical direct experience (emphasis on the lived mystery beyond thought),
- Pragmatic integration (spirituality as real transformation in life),
- Anti-dogmatic self-authority (no external guru, no fixed belief system),
- Healing-centred consciousness work (spirituality informs growth).
Me and the Mystery
The mystery is the foundation of everything I have ever heard described as spirituality.
So what is it?
Every night I go to sleep, and when I am through with dreaming, I drop into deep dreamless sleep — and everything is gone. My pain, heartbreak, sorrow, worry, motivation, identity, my personal history, my possessions, achievements, even the awareness of my body. The complete dissolution of all I hold most dear.
And yet I climb into bed unbothered.
And I return from deep, dreamless sleep refreshed.
That is profoundly mysterious to me.
Where do, “I” go?
I have been exploring both ends of that question my whole life: Who am “I”?
And where do I go?
Consciousness and Unconsciousness
In my experience, consciousness is not static. It unfolds.
We arrive into life, each with varying amounts of unconsciousness, which we spend our lives working through and refining. Some of us carry more unconsciousness. Some less.
We are all the same at our core, just with different amounts of unconsciousness.
I don’t treat this as judgment or doctrine. Instead, it is a way of making sense of difference without moral superiority: why some people are radiant while others are very dark.
From this perspective, unconsciousness is not “wrong”. So, unlike traditions that emphasize annihilating the ego or escaping the personality, my approach is compassion toward all parts, including those that are less conscious. True growth isn’t suppression of the “lower” selves; it is conscious and compassionate inclusion of all parts without hierarchy.
Existence, Out‑of‑Existence, and the Mystery
My perspectives come from my direct experience and have led to a functional model of reality, not a belief.
Existence is more of an interface than an ultimate reality.
- Existence is what appears on the immersive, forward‑facing display we call the world.
- Everything else happens out of existence. This is where perception, sensation, intuition, and consciousness are registered.
- The mystery is deeper still: the ground beneath psychic activity, identity, time, and form.
The Body as an Interface
The body is more of a glove than the totality of who we are. An elaborate pressure‑sensitive glove puppet we operate from out of existence.
This reverses the way we usually look at things:
- What we call “inner space” is actually vast.
- What we call “outer space” is the appearance of depth on the display.
Existence appears as a fully immersive interface, similar to a cinema or virtual environment, engaged with through the interface of the body.
Psychic Space Is Real, Structured, and Dangerous When Romanticised
In my experience, what are commonly called psychic or paranormal phenomena are real in the sense that they are experientially encountered, populated, and powerful. The psychic space is a layer of out‑of‑existence reality.
I discourage engagement with it because it tends to increase fear and confusion.
Attempts to filter only the friendly energies, fight, or protect against the unfriendly energies only deepen entanglement rather than resolve it.
The Cosmic Joke
I experience a sense of humour woven into reality. I recognize the cosmic joke, not as a cute spiritual idea, but as a structural feature of reality.
While unconsciousness is active, it is painful and consequential.
When it is seen — and when the consequences have eased — it becomes funny.
Not dismissive funny.
Liberating funny.
The joke is not at people, but in the mechanism:
- Identity trying to secure itself.
- Thinking trying to out-think itself.
- Control trying to eliminate uncertainty.
When unconsciousness is no longer defended, it is hilarious — because it is so earnest, so certain, and so unnecessary.
Companionship, Not Teaching
All the above add up to the anatomy of consciousness. At least as far as my perspective allows.
This is one of the reasons why –
I don’t teach.
I don’t claim authority.
I don’t position myself as someone who knows where others should go.
I got enlightened in 1996 and part of that realisation was knowing that the time of the guru was over.
I am a friendly companion, walking alongside others as they find their own way home.
I offer presence, honesty, humour, compassion, and shared humility in the vast not-knowing of the mystery.